This paper is in the support of the Thesis Exhibition, Someone Who Is Not Like Anyone, which includes artworks in ballpoint pen and watercolors. In the exhibition, I explore the different moods of masculinity that I observed and sought to inhabit while in the closet in Iran but which I ultimately rejected. In the process, I recreate for the viewer the aesthetics/experiences of closeted men. The paper explores how art, under various circumstances, has been a savior in my life. This paper is also an overview of the development of my artistic growth throughout the closeted years to the coming out years. I divide my artistic life into different chapters: childhood; teen years; artistic discovery; immigration and thesis exhibition. This process has gradually moved from private to public, as well as from fear to confidence