This article explores my process of being emotionally literate, realizing my personal power through it and deciding to move ahead with my Ph.D. to explore further as my contribution in the flourishing of humanity. In this qualitative reflective self-study, I have used my detailed personal, professional, and academic reflective journal and audio-visual narratives that I had kept over seven years as data to explore the process of learning. The article reveals my process of learning from my experiences as a confused Nepali girl to my experience of working as a journalist, to an aspiring educational leader and a researcher. The results are discussed using a microscopic lens into my childhood and understanding how the social settings were playing a major role in my learning and how emotional intelligence played an instrumental role in deconstructing that and helped me understand myself better and urging me to explore further through my Ph.D. research as an educational leader
