With its Gray and Muddy Mouth: A Personal Myth of the Call of Another

This paper is a sequel to my discussion of Bee and Spider archetypes (Soidla, 1998a, 1998b). In the space of the author’s personal mythology, the Worm archetype is a continuum embracing spiritual materialism, individual superstitions, and popular magic at one of its ends. The other end of the same continuum reaches the realm of Thou, Atman-Brahman, Source, Silence. The dualistic and dynamic call of Another destabilizes the status quo and leads one into wandering on the continuum in either direction and can destroy one’s lifestyle and very sanity with seemingly no positive consequences—but can also lead one via a kind of metaphysical metamorphosis to healing and to Wholeness. A most portable Zoo. I AM A cunning Fox of spiritual materialism(Soidla, 1995b), also a yearning Dog (Soidla,1996) (and at the same time an Andalusian Doggie pretending to chase bees [Soidla, 1998a] and hardly knowing that in a crack of his/her paw one can sometimes notice the same Bees at work). I am an individualistic Spider (Soidla, 1998b), bu

Dinomor: Evoking Memories of Dino\u27s Dreams and Death

This is a transpersonal fantasy about the last days of the dinosaurs ca. sixty-five million years ago. I suppose that communication with the Timeless (or if one prefers to put it--with Another) in one\u27s mind precedes intraspecies communication and that one of the first recognizable acts of mystical life is surrender. A more specific and of course more far-out and irreverent hypothesis underlying this fantasy is that--unlike the bulk of individual memory records--Timeless memory seeds of unspecified origin are transmittable by a [retro]enterovirus. This leads to the possibility of horizontal transmission of this type of memory. In the new host, the Timeless memory virus persists until one day, after a possibly quite long genetical adjustment process, it will be inserted into DNA coding for synchronization signals of the memory recording machinery of this organism. Within the synchronization signals Timeless memory seeds will further adjust to the new host and then become active in a cycle of reciprocal editing of individual memory records (that is often quite adaptive for the host organism) and as a result will often multiply to very high titers (copy numbers)

Waiting for Circus Animals\u27 Desertion A True Story of a Cryptic Spiritual Zoo in the Rag-and-Bone Shop o f My Heart

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